A Godsend

     Of all things, I never expected this day to start with tears.  It would’ve been alright if they were happy tears.  But they weren’t.  Not on my part.  It’s so ironic that the first thing I said when I called was “I’m sorry” rather than “Happy Birthday”.  It’s heartbreaking how there have been sighs and frozen silence where warmth and laughter should have been.  But then, I’ve got no one but myself to blame.

     I’ve spent the entire day thinking about what I could do to make this day special.  All I succeeded in doing is making it start out awkwardly.  Again, I apologize.  And I thank you for being so wonderfully forgiving despite the disappointment that I know you felt.  You probably would start frowning once you see that I’m apologizing again.  Nevertheless, I just want you to know how sorry I am about what happened.  I didn’t mean it.

     Now on to what I’ve really been wanting to say…

     I asked myself time and again about what gift I could possibly give to the person who is the greatest gift in my life.  I keep on drawing a blank because nothing could ever measure up to the way that you love me.  You make me so happy in countless ways.

     God sends each person into this world with a special message to deliver, with a special song to sing, with a special act of love to bestow… No one else can deliver your message, or sing your song, or offer your act of love.  Take heed of the ministry which you have received in the Lord, so that you may fulfill it.

     God must have had grand plans for you when He brought you into the world twenty-two years ago.  And I know, without a doubt, that you are fulfilling everything He has planned beyond expectations, one by one.  There are hearts out there waiting to hear your message; and you have unselfishly shared all you know and unabashedly written about how you feel in a way that touches others so profoundly, just as every word you say wraps my heart in security and warmth.  There is a world out there waiting to hear your song; and you have willingly shared your talents with others be it within His ministry and beyond, just as every song you sing brings me such solace and comfort.  There are people out there whose lives might be brightened by your love; and you have unconditionally tried to do your best to make those around you happy, just as your love makes my life much more wonderful than I ever dreamed it could be.

     Thank you angel, for everything.  I pray that all your dreams come true, the way mine did when you came into my life.  I hope that you witness more miracles, the way I do whenever you show me how much you love me.  I know that you deserve the best that life has to offer, simply because you strive to offer life the best that you could give.

     Happy birthday, James. I love you so much.