Love Visions: Looking back on a closed chapter

     I was digging through the depths of my hard drive when I found a file that I haven’t opened in over a year.  It was a love story, albeit a virtual one.  And though it is a chapter that has been ended, bound, and sealed, I have this unexplainable compulsion to have a fleeting glimpse of it, and to share that glimpse with all who would like to see.  Yes, I am beyond happy with the chapter I am in right now, in the virtual and in the real world.  But that cannot eradicate the fact that once upon a time, in the virtual world that was Fenrir, there was a fleeting moment wherein the Lord Knight Deirdre Winterflame fell in love with the Mastersmith Hugh Hefner, an affirmation of the feelings that were unfolding in the real world.  This is their story…

LOVE VISIONS

     Love is a vision everyone chases. Every girl harbors fantasies of finding a true gentleman - bedecked with the requisite Helm of Solar God, +10 equipments, and of course, that gorgeous aura.

     Almost two years ago, I met Hugh Hefner, but he is not your typical fantasy guy. No rare headgear, no +10 equipments, and no aura. His pride and joy was his +6 Orc Helm, painstakingly gained through weeks of whacking a +6 triple bloody chain on the inhabitants of Orc Dungeon, looted just in time before Orc Lord suddenly spawned in front of him and delivered a blow so vicious that when he regained consciousness, he was back in Prontera. He never cared much for fancy gears; he never tried to show off to fit in. He was more of the silent, stoic type - never trying to be on the spotlight, contented just to be of help to his party and guild, especially during War of Emperium. His star doesn’t shine in PVP or WOE; he does not have the overwhelming power of an Asura Strike, or the deadly critical hits of an Assassin. He cannot withstand raging blows the way a Knight can, and he does not wield arcane magic the way Wizards do.

     Not much to base a strong attraction on, right? Well, what really struck me about him was the way he took the road less taken. As a Blacksmith, he could have trained to become very agile, spamming mammonite and revo-ing enemies with ease. But no, he chose a different path; with only one point of agility, he went on to max his vitality. Despite discouragement from friends and ridicule from other players, he never swayed from his chosen path.

     When the time for transcendence came, he could have gone down the route taken by his comrades. But he never wavered. Through his dedication and love for the class, he worked his way, slowly and painstakingly, to the coveted MasterSmith aura. His strength and vitality allows him to withstand the most excruciating blows. Even when the odds are against our guild, he pushes on, shouting encouragement to others, shielding those with limited vitality from vicious attackers, taking the blows meant for them. He rushes towards the enemy with firm faith and a strong heart, melting down their defense so that his comrades could come in and storm the emperium. And though he may die in the process, he is content to know that he did his part and helped his friends.

     This is Hugh Hefner now. Not a Lord Knight, but never afraid to take the frontline in war. Neither a Paladin nor a Priest, but shields others from harm. Neither a Sage nor a Wizard, but wields the power of the elements in his heart. Not a Champion with a raging fist, but for me, a champion nonetheless, in the truest sense of the word. Yes, Hugh Hefner is the champion of my heart… that, and much, much more… exceeding all visions.

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     I can’t help but release a sigh after reading this story.  Not a regretful sigh, but a thankful sigh.  I am thankful that I have loved, and that what has happened before has taught me all the more, how wonderful loving can be when you finally find your true twin-soul. 

     With looking back comes moving on…  I have once grieved for the love I chose to give up.  And then I started healing, and hoping, and praying.  I prayed that I would be able to find someone better.  And now, I am so overwhelmed because not only did God answer my prayer, He gave me someone beyond what I’ve ever hoped for.  He has given me an angel.  He has shown me a miracle.

 I love you James.