October 28, 2009
With a few minutes left until my official out-time from work, here’s a list of the things that I’m wishing for right now, from the most inconsequential to the most invaluable:
Sigh…
October 14, 2009
“After eighteen years of mediocrity, I was pretty used to being average. I realize now that I’d long ago given up on any aspirations of shining at anything. I just did the best with what I had, never quite fitting into my world. So this was really different. I was amazing now – to them and to myself. It was like I had been born to be a vampire. The idea made me want to laugh, but it also made me want to sing. I had found my true place in the world, the place I fit, the place I shined.”
- Bella Cullen in Breaking Dawn
It seems as if I would never run out of quotes from the Twilight series. Which just goes to show what a big fan I am. But quite honestly, I’ve had many bursts of inspiration as I read some lines in the books. I always try to learn from everything I read and encounter, and I definitely have a lot of insights inspired by my beloved fictional characters.
Many of us settle for mediocrity. It is easier somehow, to blend in with the crowd and never try to do something daring or exceptional. There are no pressures and no unmanageable obstacles. But the truth of the matter is, more often than not, we are much better than we think ourselves to be.
We all have potentials, and it is up to us to realize these. We should never settle for less than what we are capable of. And we should remember that everything is possible if we believe that it is.
This quote holds a special meaning for me, especially since I am embarking on a new career move yet again. I am hoping and praying that this would be the place where I fit. And hopefully, the place where I would shine. There would be challenges along the way. But with God’s grace and the support of the people that I love, I know that I can make it. 
October 13, 2009
“Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars – points of light and reason… and then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly, everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything…”
- Edward Cullen to Bella Swan in New Moon
Meteors are such fleeting things. Unlike comets which circle the earth and are seen again after several decades, meteors flash by once and then are gone forever. After a meteor streaks by, there is a finality to it – a close. And it’s sad, really.
True love is like a meteor. It would streak by just once in your lifetime, and if you aren’t fast enough or wise enough to catch it, then it’s gone forever. And when love is gone, so is light… so is reason…
I guess I’m lucky that I was able to recognize my meteor for what it is: true love in the guise of friendship. I couldn’t imagine how my life would be right now if I hadn’t found my light and my reason… if I hadn’t found James. And I would forever be thankful for the gift of love that we now share.
October 9, 2009
James and I have quit playing RO for almost a year, but then the coming of the Renewal Patch sparked my hubby’s interest, and we decided to play again. Nothing serious as WoE or anything, but we have decided to prepare some characters for renewal. And a few of these characters happen to belong to the alchemist class – our favorite character class in the game.
In mine and James’ entire RO playing career, I think we’ve had about nine characters belonging to the said class. For renewal, we probably would change seven of them to the third class, which is Genetic. Most of them have a homunculus, and we are currently working on levelling up an amistr, a filir, and a vanilmirth, which explains my post title.
Levelling up a homunculus, especially a vanilmirth, is a frustrating experience. You would find yourself getting more and more nervous as level up time approaches. And when your preferred stats do not get any bonuses, you would want to bash your head into the monitor. Well, maybe not that severe, but close.
Selene Celestialle’s vanilmirth is giving me quite a headache. He’s currently at level 59 and he had no INT growth the past level. He’s had 3 stagnant levels between 50 – 59 and I do hope that the slump would end soon. I’d hate to see all the time (not to mention load) spent go to waste if I have to delete him. It’s a pain really.
Oh well, at least Nelo’s filir seems to be doing well at level 64. As for Galadrielle’s amistr, he’s now 95 and I have no intention of deleting him despite his below average stats. He’s the first ever homunculus I’ve summoned way back in 2005. deleting him would be sacrilege.
So I apparently have more anxiety-filled days to look forward to. I hope it all pays off in the end. Cheers to all homunculus breeders!~
September 7, 2009
Being the avid reader that I am, I often find myself going through different “phases.” I relate to the heroines of the books that I read, and consequently, I find myself daydreaming of the heroes of the books I read. More so when I books I read are made into movies and I get to see the object of my daydreams enfleshed. Yes, I’ve gone through a Legolas phase (The Lord of the Rings) and a Landon Carter phase (A Walk to Remember). I also went through a brief Harry Potter phase, and I distinctly remember having thought that Cedric Diggory was cute, but he was killed off too soon and I didn’t get the chance to explore that phase more. Little did I know that the fleeting interest I held would be resurrected to a whole new level when the same actor would play the character who is the object of my current obsessive phase; Edward Cullen.
When I first heard about the book Twilight, I was intrigued by the number of people who say that it’s a fantastic book. I never got to buy a copy, since I was pinching pennies that time, but I did read the plot summary and it seemed quite interesting. I was specifically intrigued by the male protagonist, who also happens to be a vampire. Seeing that my then-boyfriend, and now-husband is fond of biting… well, you could see where the attraction came from. To make the long story short, I watched the movie, and then I was hopelessly hooked.
The mania died down for a while, but when a colleague lent me her copy of Twilight, my attraction to Edward Cullen came rushing back. And I am again hopelessly on the “Edward phase” of my infatuations. Of course, beyond the raging hormones, I should say that the novel is a very good read. The romance is surreal yet made believable. I would not attempt to make a review though, as my hormone-induced state of mind would most likely just gush on the ethereal perfection of the book’s protagonist.
So me just humor the airhead in me as I shout out, “I love you Edward!”
***No offense to my hubby. You know I love you more honey!
September 7, 2009
James and I have been together for almost three years now, but last week was the first time that we ever went to the movies together. This may seem funny, but somehow, our dates in the past were not typical of a young couple. One movie, though, peaked our interest enough to make us watch it on the big screen. Disney-Pixar’s “Up”.
We had high expectations for the movie, as we’ve heard so many nice things about it. Friends told us that the movie made them cry. What they didn’t tell us was how soon it made them cry. James and I, emotional as we are, were crying within the first 15 minutes of the movie. And we stopped crying just enough to give us a breather before the next round of tears start.
One wouldn’t expect an animated film to be a tearjerker, but Up certainly is. But more than that, the movie is a celebration of true love and of dreams that never die. And that oftentimes, the simple far outweighs the grand. James and I stepped out of the moviehouse wishing that we would find ourselves living a married life as happy and content as that of Carl and Ellie.
To anyone who still hasn’t watched the movie, I strongly suggest that you do. It might just change the way you look at life.
July 24, 2009
I have always thought that I would grow up to be a lawyer. Things didn’t go as planned though, and I ended up in sales. I eventually moved on to training, and I fell in love with it.
I have always been a bookworm. I loved reading about everything and acquiring more knowledge. New trivia excites me. I guess because of this, I acquired the natural inclination to share what I know with others. Add the fact that my platform skills have been sharpened by the numerous oratorical, declamation, and extemporaneous speaking contests I have joined. Plus, my stint as editor in chief enhanced my research and writing abilities, enabling me to effectively formulate lesson plans and modules for my trainees. It’s the perfect recipe for teaching!
I loved my stay in Japan, even if I had to be away from my family. And now, I’m lucky that I’ve had several opportunities to continue doing what I love doing. I am enjoying my work so far [the details of which I prefer to disclose at a later time], and the people I work with are really great. I’m happy with where I’m at, career-wise, and I hope that I would get to grow more as a trainer in the coming months.
July 11, 2009
Dear James, my angel,
I know that I have been overly emotional lately, and I apologize. I’ve tested your patience several times, and we’ve been through some rough patches, but still, here we are. Thank you for making an effort to understand me, and thank you because despite my mood swings and crying spells, you’re still there to love me unconditionally.
I thought that getting married would lessen my need to be with you. I thought that the fact that we are to live in the same house, seeing each other on a daily basis, would dampen the headiness that I feel whenever I’m in your arms. But surprisingly, getting married has intensified my need to be with you, so much that I turn into an emotional, anxious wreck when you’re not around. I thought that I was strong, but I am only strong for as long as I am with you. Without you, I crumble and I fall.
With you, I am better. With you, I can soar. You’re the one who gave me wings after all. You mended what was broken in me, and filled what was empty. You made life so wonderful that I can no longer imagine life without you beside me. Happiness equates to you. Love equates to you. Life equates to you…
We’ve been through so much already, yet I know that there still are so many challenges that we have yet to face. But I am not afraid. Why should I be, when I know that the strength of our love is enough to overcome whatever adversities may come. I would gladly face all tomorrows, because I am secure in your love for me. And know that I, too, love you. More than words can say…
Always & forever,
Raine
July 11, 2009
James left home a while ago for his ward’s outing at White Capes Beach Resort located in Nasugbu, Batangas. I was supposed to have gone with him but unfortunately, the outing schedule coincides with my dad’s arrival from Bacolod. I’m left here at home and I am genuinely wishing to be somewhere else. Well, more specifically, to be with my hubby. Especially since I would be starting work very soon.
Well, at least it’s just going to be an overnight stay. I would be leaving tomorrow at around 4:30 a.m. with Mommy, Martha, and Joselle. We’ll be picking my dad up at the airport at around 8:00 a.m. Then we would proceed to Silang for my nephew’s christening. James would be meeting us at the church. I hope he doesn’t get lost since he would be commuting from Tagaytay.
I’m feeling really sad. I would probably spend the rest of this day in low spirits. Oh well…
July 8, 2009
James and I are trying hard to get past the business troubles we’ve been going through. We have both decided that it would be for the best if I pursue work applications so as to meet the financial needs of our family. With my fingers crossed, I tried applying to a few companies, and luckily, two of them called last week. And now, I have a major dilemma.
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